I quit field hockey. :sad: its sad honestly, i am not a quitter, in fact i hate quitting. but it needed to happen, for my own personal sanity.
been playing since sixth grade, was on varsity as a sophmore. i hope i'll be at a state where i can come back next year.
College is really starting to settle in, I'm only a joiner but my dad and I talked a lot about it. I need to get a job, like TOMORROW. Sad to think I'd have to start working now for college, but my dream is california. and i WILL make that happen (or somwhere around there)
I need to get my license.
on the art side of things...
blah, art this year sucks. I hate my teacher, she's a stupid bitch and the way she teaches is like nails on a chalkboard everytime i walk into class. sad, i know. the only class that i like now, i cant stand.
my passions are going down hill lately, which blows.. i don't really have much to look forward too anymore
outside of my boyfriend. (6 months in a week)
my hand hurts, i burned it the other night by accident... hmm..
yeah i really should be reading.
i duno why i even bother to update these, i dont think anyone reads them
oh well.
day 2 of field hockey.
in a half an hour
i slept over at my friends house yesterday,
and i realized how stressed and overwhelmed i am about everything
it tottally sucks. i wish i didn't feel this way, you know?
and I got a call at 9.00 am this morning from my boyfriend.
he's sick and probably wont be better until the weekend
i feel really bad for him. i miss him so much. its crazy how much in love with someone you can be at 16.
all i know is that i need him. and i don't want school to start..
I just got my camera chord from dads.. I should upload those pictures now.
maybe thats what i'll do.. give me a minute..
so they're all loading now.
probably new ones soon..
ive sucked at photography lately :/
i'm taking it in school though; first semester so i'll have some new stuff.
god, i really don't want to go to field hockey.
you know the feeling where you just want to be held and watch the world fall away?
i need it so bad..
well thanks for reading, i dont really know if anyone still looks at this account anymore..
peace and love.
Watching: for bridget to come and pick me up for hockey
Eating: nothing
Drinking: water
blahhhhhhhhh.
um. updates..
probably new band pictures soon, my friend had a huge party. I took pictures the whole night, was fun.
field hockey started today. .. going back to practice in 20 minutes. shoot me.
soo stressed about school
have to get my schedule changed, but i cant until next week ugh.
missing my boyfriend. whom im never going to see during school, fuck.
so stressed about everything.
didnt get any sleep last night.
going to see my best friend tonight though after field hockey
school starts september 5th.
need to go watch for bridget..
shit.
more later.
Listening to: Rage Against The Machine - Killing in the Nam
Reading: -
Watching: Americas Next Top Model
Eating: pudding
Drinking: Red Bull
Hi. new stuff
Starting a 3 week art camp next week, really excited about it
Been listening to new music
Have a very good boyfriend
Mom bought a new puppy- maltese poodle- Maizey Mae, she's adorable
Its summer, i did okay on finals
Getting my iPod replaced
Haven't even looked at my camera
Figuring out plans for the day
Really tired, had an awfully weird dream
Feel kinda shitty
Field hockey starts soon >.<
I guess thats it..
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